For The First Time, I Dont Want To Think About Tomorrow

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For the first time, I don’t wishes to overthink
every text, every action and every breath.
I don’t want to ruin every moment.
I time want to live day by day.
For the first time, I don’t want to be too logical
or extremely calculated or too guarded.
I want to let myself feel.
I want to allow my heart to breathe.
For the first time, I don’t want to listen to others.
I don’t want to even tell them anything.
I don’t want to believe everything they say.
I just want to trust my own decisions.
For the first time, I’m tired of being my bad opponent;
reputing things won’t last,
or I don’t deserve good concepts,
or I’m not enough.
For the first time, I want to feel good enough.
I want to allow myself to be happy.
Happiness won’t ever be short-lived —
not everything will transgress my heart.
For the first time, I’m ascertaining how to be still
and not be too hard-handed on myself.
I’m learning that maybe the universe is on my side
and timing is not always a bitch.
For the first time, I’m changing my narrative.
I’m changing the singers inside my head.
I’m changing my floor —
writing a glad ending instead.

Rania Naim is a poet and writer of the new notebook, available here.

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