No Motherfucker Steals My Sparkle

Ali Kaukas

And they show up
at the same time
like slogans from the universe
are you sure you don’t want an unavailable one?
here’s a few you’ve chewed into
and they slim and slimmer
across my path
are you still in a relationship?
that’s hard to answer
or some other unclear complicated bullshit answer that leaves opening for hope
to be expected that he’ll leave and constitute gap for us
horse shit
you know what will happen
I’ll invest 6 months of energy and time
and then he will represent his cards
and if he’s dipping his thumbs in more than one heart
he isn’t in the market for one
it will time resolve the nature it began
searching over his shoulder
and you’ll be gazing over yours
because the other woman is never the woman
and fortunately I be better than to be the other woman
even energetically
I say no
and he goes
wait
wait
let’s just be friends
plutonic
and I say
horse shit you want to be my plutonic friend
grey
grey
grey
wait
wait
I really want to see you
it’s been a while
you’re really living
I miss some of what you’re taking
paws pulling at me as I’m already walking away
great
so
you’re not available
and you want to plagiarize my sparkle
no mother fucker embezzles my sparkle

This extends out to the unavailable men
who propel fishing robs into women with aces in their eyes
who listen to their horse shit
and believe

The only thing they should believe is that you do not deserve to see the bottom of her leather boot as she moves out the room

If you toy with a woman’s heart
and her mind
you’re just as good as the women who know and imagine anyway
and I’m done trusting anyway

And why do we allure the unavailable ones
with horseshit in their teeth?
because we have pony shit in our teeth
and our stomaches have spots of suspicion for the secure love
the loving love
the beloved that grabs you in the night
with all its might

No
that compassion is boring
black socks in the dryer
we would rather fall in love with assholes who leave us victims
then look at the asshole part of our feelings that are afraid
and determine them
so we can settle into a adoration that is kind.

Janne Robinson is a poet and writer of

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