A Farewell Letter To The Girl I Used To Be

Becca Tarter

I’ll miss you but I know you and I need to go our separate ways.

You were so innocent, eyes full of hope, a smile that didn’t expect any tears and a spirit full of beautiful fantasizes but you were also naive. You were a beautiful chump. You didn’t have enough confidence to believe in yourself and you didn’t think you were capable of being independent and smashing free from your holding mothers. Your daydreams were limited and you were always chasing adoration before trying to love yourself first.

You had considered that affection entail endangering who you are and being the bigger person all the time. You thought that affection mean lying to yourself in order to be allowed to please your parents or your best friend or your significant other. You thought that adoration meant suppressing your enunciate, your needs and your appears. You thought that love was voluntary abuse .

You were always afraid. Fearful of bridging the line. Afraid to say what’s on your psyche. Obsessed too much about what parties thought of you. Trying to be what everyone else expected you to be and forgetting who you really are. You were always taking ten gradations back so people can be ten paces onward. You got used to being. You thought that was the norm. You didn’t thought you said you deserved the various kinds of enjoy and courtesy you imparted everyone else.

I’ll miss you because you remind me of the working day when it was just easier to conform. Easier to avoid drama. Easier to live a life you didn’t prefer. Easier to just follow what everyone is telling you instead of trying to build a life you’re proud of. You didn’t want to go to fight so you lost all your battles.

But you were not realistic. You were not brave. You were not strong. You were always afraid to gleam. You were always afraid of challenges.

This is why I had to let you go. This is why I had to start over without you.
Because who I am now is closer to who I want to be. The female I am becoming is who I should have always been. The maiden I’m is transformed into is everything you weren’t.

The woman I am now is the one I trust to write my story. The one I believe in. The one I can relate to. The one who can give me the best life. The girl I am now is everything you should have been. The maiden I am now is make what you broke and correcting all your mistakes .

I understand it was hard for you to know what’s right or wrong or who you wanted to be but you determined for years when you could have worked harder. You lost yourself and never tried to find it again. You gave up and anticipated life to hand you what you required on a silver-tongued plate but that’s how you

I don’t hate you and I don’t blame you for being this behavior either but I don’t mull I crave you inside me anymore. I don’t conceive I can be myself when you’re in my brain. I don’t speculate I can feel good about the future if your past is still attached to me.

So thank you for all that you two are. Thank you for the lessons. Thank you for your innocence. It’s only not the place for you anymore. You don’t belong now with me. I’m chasing a life that would have fright you. I’m daydream bigger than your mind would have ever saw. I’m memorizing to adore all the components you disliked. I’m saving myself from you.

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